Towards the Flame – Always

If you choose to dance with the devil do you ever win? I’ve always stepped towards the flame – not away. Been fascinated by the insanity of others, the threat of danger, taunting others to do their worst and throwing their attempts in their face. Believing I deserved the slashes of deep pain. I’m still…

Like A Cat

Cyndi Lauper – Like A Cat I lived in your shadow I drove your car You thought I belonged in your four walls I was never your bunny I was never, never your pet When you threw me out the window I landed on my feet Yeah you threw me out the window Like a,…

All We Need is Love

“I don’t want my idea of you. That’s too easy, and it isn’t real. I want you, faults and all. And I want you to want me, faults and all, not any ideas you have about love.” Waylon Lewis Over the last few weeks, I am slowly appreciating – and accepting – that love comes…

Changes… are for the best – right???

Blog name change from “Just Be Normal” when I first started this blog in 2011/2012(?). My now ex partner used to shout that at me …..”Just be normal!!!!!!”. He did not understand that I didn’t know what normal was, I didn’t know who I was …. so how could I be something when I didn’t…

Summary of 2019 so far.

Life is slowing down again since May fall out. To cope I have reverted back to keeping busy. I’ve been keeping myself busy with major projects – outside garden revamp, inside house clean out and re-arranging of every room and adding indoor plants. Luv, Me.

Am I back?

My last post was over a year ago – when I thought I had it together and was getting going again. And I was – and am. Yet I am going through yet another downward spiral that has lasted for quite a few months this year …. the positive is that I am seeing the…

I am back!

I am back. I hope. It has been a long and hard road back to feeling like I can share my life and my story. I have been struggling to see the point, to have hope or to even think that someone, anyone is interested in hearing my voice. Anyone want a tall, cold glass…

Struggling to move ahead

I truly do not know what the future holds for me and it scares me …. even though I know no-one else knows either. I have never been scared of the unknown in this way – I always felt like the master of my own destiny. However I feel I have lost the power in…

Still crying

It is almost a year since mum died and I am still grieving. Still lost. Without her, I feel like I have no direction, drive or desire to live beyond doing the minimum actions – work, clean the house, grocery shop and read. I have realised that I a lot of my passion, drive, strength…

6 months today

It’s 6 months today since mum died and the pain is easing slightly but the loneliness continues without abating. I miss her little face, her voice and her joy at always seeing me or answering the phone to me – she would always say “I was just thinking about you!”. She always seemed to be…

I have truly lost everything

Everything and everyone has gone. I am now trying to rebuild everything. Job. Career. Study. Friends. Life. Health. I lost my mum, my beautiful mum nearly six months ago. It is only now that I have started living again – some days I truly did not know how life could start being good again. Or…

Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria

Dodson ADHD Center – Willliam W. Dodson, M.D., is a board-certified psychiatrist who has specialized in adults with ADHD for the last 22 years. A former faculty member at Georgetown University and the University of Colorado Health Sciences Center, Dodson is a Life Fellow of the American Psychiatric Association and a member of ADDitude Magazine’s…