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I Am An Alcoholic

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I fully believe that I must be excruciatingly honest with myself and select others if I want a better life.

That the only way to save myself is to acknowledge the good, the bad and the ugly.

I am an alcoholic. My body reacts to alcohol as if I am allergic to it – I start disappearing with the first sip.

I become a ghost – watching from a distance as my entire being lights up like the solar system. Alter egos come out to play – it’s all fun and games until someone gets hurt. By the end of my drinking there was no fun – just blackouts, screaming, tears and revolting episodes and self loathing.

So for me – I need to fully embrace the fact I am an alcoholic, allergic to alcohol who is destined for excruciating pain if I pick up another drink.

Tough to face but life drinking is unbearable.

Isabella.